A couple of posts ago I wrote about dating someone, well that has now turned into a relationship, one that I'm actually enjoying.
It might sound a bit weird saying that I'm enjoying it but the truth of the matter is I've never had what one would class as a healthy relationship. My choice in men hasn't been the greatest. Looking back I have always allowed myself to settle and thinking that I don't deserve better then what I have.
Now for the first time I can say I'm with a guy who gets me and who would do anything for me. That is such a nice feeling. I know that I would do everything in my power for him as well and there is so much compromise when we get to things that we don't agree on. He makes me feel safe and like I'm someone who is worth his time, I hope that he feels the same when he is with me.
I know that there are days where I let my fears overwhelm me and I start thinking that maybe I'm not good enough for him. I'm learning though that the more time I spend with him, the more I learn to relax and let go of those fears. It's a slow process and I don't know if I will ever let them go completely but I'm happy to keep trying.
I guess at the end of the day the important thing is that I found my happy and I need to work in keeping it. I can't stop smiling and I figure that is a good thing.
This one is a fight worth fighting in my books and I plan on winning.
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