So today I got thinking, I don't think good things about myself and my body. This is due to a number of things, terrible relationships, bad self esteem and body shaming. Today I decided that I'm going to change my way I think about myself, I need to stop thinking of myself in such a negative light. I need to learn to accept when my boyfriend gives me a compliment and stop questioning it or having a negative response to it. He tells me that I'm my own worst critic and his right (Don't tell him I said that).
I need to start loving myself and I need to do this for me and for him as well. A lot of you are reading that sentence and probably thinking, I get why you need to do it for yourself but why do it for the boyfriend?
Well the answer to that is... If I don't start seeing myself as this amazing, beautiful being that he sees then it's going to get to the point where he will see me in the negative light that I see myself. He will stop telling me that I'm beautiful and I don't want that. Hearing him say that gives me the warm and fuzzies and more often than not he makes me feel like I'm the best looking girl in the room. That feeling is something I want to keep and if that means changing the way I see myself than I'm going to make it happen. If you really think about it, it's the best thing I can do for myself, why should I beat myself up and body shame myself? Why should any of us do it? We are all beautiful, special and unique in our own way and we need to embrace it.
Question is where do I start... Well I have decided that I'm going to say one nice thing about myself everyday and I'm going to believe it. I'm also going to learn to accept a compliment, how hard can that be right? All I have to do is smile and say thank you... I can do this!
Maybe we all need to do it for ourselves, be kinder to our bodies and learn to love what makes us special. The next time someone tells you that you are ugly or fat or you would be prettier if your acne cleared up or if you wore more make up or you need to eat more or that you need to be a size zero or you need to stop eating so much... You turn around and tell them that you are perfect the way you are.
Be positive about yourself because I sure as hell am going to start doing it.
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