Today I wanted to do something different, I wanted to write an letter to the two people that complained about me at the gym for having a break down. They said that they come into the gym to see people be happy and upbeat. Well I want you both to understand that sometimes it isn't possible, I want you to understand what you have taken away from me.
To my complainers,
Today you complained to my Boss about me because my breakdown during my workout, in my own time offended you. Here are a few things I need you to know.
The two of you, you know me as the girl that works in the gym, and while I'm on duty there are certain things that are accepted of me. This I understand, but when I come into the gym at 8am every morning, that is on my own time, I don't start my shift until 10am.
Here are a few things that you need to know about me, I travel every morning using public transport, this involves a bus and a train, from the train station I then walk to the gym. In order for me to be at the gym at 8am, I leave home at 6:30am. I do a work out from 8am - 930am ( give or take 15 mins). I then get ready for work, I start my shift at 10am and work until 7:30pm. I then grab my things and make a mad dash to the station to make my train home. If I'm lucky my trains aren't cancelled or delayed or held in some crazy manner. Once I get off the train I then wait for the bus home in the dark, if I'm lucky my wait is only 5 mins, if I'm not I'm waiting for anywhere between 20 - 30 mins for the bus. Some nights I'm home by 9pm those are the good nights, other nights I get home closer to 10pm. I'm not telling you this to gain your sympathy, it is my choice and I accept that.
I hardly see my family and most nights I don't eat dinner, again my choice.
I do this Monday - Friday.
I don't get much time for myself during the week, my stress relief in this time frame is my work outs in the morning at 8am. In that time I don't have to smile and be happy. I can be miserable and frustrated with my training, I can be happy that I beat a personal best, I can have a panic attack, I can feel blah or I can simply do a work out and feel nothing. At 8am it is my time to not pretend to be a happy, bubbly person, it is my time to be me, to feel whatever it is that I have locked away during my 9.5 Hour shift.
My work out is how I cope. By complaining you have taken away my coping mechanism.
Here is what else you don't know about me, I suffer from Polystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), I have bad anxiety, I have a Hip Dysplasia, I have Scoliosis, I have a bad knee and it has taken me over a month to get back into doing a work out because I have had to deal with a negative head space.
I will let that sink in for a second.
Here is how the gym helps me. By working out I keep my weight at a manageable level, if I do that my PCOS, is bearable. If my weight is at a healthy range I might struggle as much to have children.
My Anxiety, well that's an easy one, working out means I have goals, it gives my brain a chance to shut off and focus on something other then what is going on in my head. It allows me to cope with the day ahead of me.
The Hip, the back and the knee they benefit with the work outs, because it helps keep them moving, if I build up my muscles I'm not in as much pain, I can perform movements that people take for granted with ease, like getting out of bed, walking, standing, sitting, just to name a few. By exercising I prevent arthritis at an early again, I'm only 25.
My reason for the break down today was because I'm struggling with my Rehab, my body hurts, basic movements are a struggle, and I know have to relearn everything. I no longer can do what I was capable of, I have taken 10 steps back and today was my first time in a long time trying to take a step forward.
By complaining to my boss about my breakdown today you have taken it all away for me. You have left me with two choices now, I either pay for a gym memberships (something I can't afford on my current pay check) or I stop training all together (not an option).
So by complaining I now need to give up my driving lessons and my regular appointment with the Osteopath to help with me rehab. So that I can afford a gym membership.
I recently made the discussion to complete my degree and now I might not be able to as my anxiety will hold me back.
So I don't expect you to give me sympathy. I understand that as members of the gym, you are entitled to have the best experience possible, I understand that my break down was not ideal but what I don't understand is why without knowing why I had that break down you felt it okay to complain?
You might never read this and I have no idea who you are but I hope that if anything comes out of this, it is that someone out there doesn't make the same mistake you did.
Best Wishes
XX
To my complainers,
Today you complained to my Boss about me because my breakdown during my workout, in my own time offended you. Here are a few things I need you to know.
The two of you, you know me as the girl that works in the gym, and while I'm on duty there are certain things that are accepted of me. This I understand, but when I come into the gym at 8am every morning, that is on my own time, I don't start my shift until 10am.
Here are a few things that you need to know about me, I travel every morning using public transport, this involves a bus and a train, from the train station I then walk to the gym. In order for me to be at the gym at 8am, I leave home at 6:30am. I do a work out from 8am - 930am ( give or take 15 mins). I then get ready for work, I start my shift at 10am and work until 7:30pm. I then grab my things and make a mad dash to the station to make my train home. If I'm lucky my trains aren't cancelled or delayed or held in some crazy manner. Once I get off the train I then wait for the bus home in the dark, if I'm lucky my wait is only 5 mins, if I'm not I'm waiting for anywhere between 20 - 30 mins for the bus. Some nights I'm home by 9pm those are the good nights, other nights I get home closer to 10pm. I'm not telling you this to gain your sympathy, it is my choice and I accept that.
I hardly see my family and most nights I don't eat dinner, again my choice.
I do this Monday - Friday.
I don't get much time for myself during the week, my stress relief in this time frame is my work outs in the morning at 8am. In that time I don't have to smile and be happy. I can be miserable and frustrated with my training, I can be happy that I beat a personal best, I can have a panic attack, I can feel blah or I can simply do a work out and feel nothing. At 8am it is my time to not pretend to be a happy, bubbly person, it is my time to be me, to feel whatever it is that I have locked away during my 9.5 Hour shift.
My work out is how I cope. By complaining you have taken away my coping mechanism.
Here is what else you don't know about me, I suffer from Polystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), I have bad anxiety, I have a Hip Dysplasia, I have Scoliosis, I have a bad knee and it has taken me over a month to get back into doing a work out because I have had to deal with a negative head space.
I will let that sink in for a second.
Here is how the gym helps me. By working out I keep my weight at a manageable level, if I do that my PCOS, is bearable. If my weight is at a healthy range I might struggle as much to have children.
My Anxiety, well that's an easy one, working out means I have goals, it gives my brain a chance to shut off and focus on something other then what is going on in my head. It allows me to cope with the day ahead of me.
The Hip, the back and the knee they benefit with the work outs, because it helps keep them moving, if I build up my muscles I'm not in as much pain, I can perform movements that people take for granted with ease, like getting out of bed, walking, standing, sitting, just to name a few. By exercising I prevent arthritis at an early again, I'm only 25.
My reason for the break down today was because I'm struggling with my Rehab, my body hurts, basic movements are a struggle, and I know have to relearn everything. I no longer can do what I was capable of, I have taken 10 steps back and today was my first time in a long time trying to take a step forward.
By complaining to my boss about my breakdown today you have taken it all away for me. You have left me with two choices now, I either pay for a gym memberships (something I can't afford on my current pay check) or I stop training all together (not an option).
So by complaining I now need to give up my driving lessons and my regular appointment with the Osteopath to help with me rehab. So that I can afford a gym membership.
I recently made the discussion to complete my degree and now I might not be able to as my anxiety will hold me back.
So I don't expect you to give me sympathy. I understand that as members of the gym, you are entitled to have the best experience possible, I understand that my break down was not ideal but what I don't understand is why without knowing why I had that break down you felt it okay to complain?
You might never read this and I have no idea who you are but I hope that if anything comes out of this, it is that someone out there doesn't make the same mistake you did.
Best Wishes
XX