For those of you that have read my every first post, you will already know this, for those who haven't, I decided to start a blog after I lost my job.
Since then a lot has changed and this post may make me come across as ungrateful but believe me I'm not.
I was lucky enough to get a job after been unemployed for a few short weeks, all thanks to my PT, he got me a job at a gym working in sales and this job lead me to meet my BF. All amazing things but the downside is this job was only meant to be a pit stop of sorts for me.
The plan was that I would do this for job for a few months, while looking for a job and finding something more suitable for my skill set. Here I am almost 5 months later, struggling to find work in my field, struggling to hold on to my sanity and struggling to cope with my anixiety.
Now I know that all jobs come with they bad points and everyone needs an outlet. Mine used to be the gym, this was my safe place, a place where I could just get away from the stress of work and all my anixiety but since I now work in what was my safe place my coping mechanism is gone and I'm not dealing with my anixiety.
I still work out 5 days a week before work but now I'm starting to despise something that I love, that scares me. The job hunting and the rejection emails are all building up and I don't know what to do. I don't want to hate my safe place.
I know that I could always quit but unemployment is a the worst thing I could do to myself. I know that if I let that happen, I would sink into a black hole of depression and lose myself completely.
So right now, it is better to be in a job I hate then to be without one I guess. The trick I think for me is to find something that will help me cope with the anixiety.
Suggestions with this would be great.
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