So as you can all tell I'm a bit slow, doing a new year post 19 days into the new year 🙈 but at least I'm finally getting around to it!
So this year has started off great and I'm hoping that this isn't going to jinx me. I started a new job which I love, my boy hasn't realised that I'm crazy (let's be honest he probably knows that I'm but loves me anyway) and is still with me and I'm in a happier place.
I learnt a shit load about myself last year, some good things and some not so good things but I think the most important thing I learnt was that I need to be kinder to myself.
That my loves is easier said then done. There are days where I hate what I see in the mirror and I hate my life. Yes hate is a strong word but it's how I see myself. I have come to this thought, if I spend all my time hating myself and who I'm then that's what people will see. This is a habit I want to break and I don't want my future kids to have this passed onto them.
So what am I going to do about it? Well last year my baby sister got me a happiness journal and I'm going to start using that. I want to take photos this year of things that make me happy and I want to be reminded of those things every time shit gets bad. It's not a lot but it's a start.
I have also realised that this year I need to be there for my boy a lot more. Last year he was my rock, he listened to me, he cried with me and he watched me struggle to keep my head above water and never let me go under.
This year I need to be his rock, I need this for us.
I'm not big on resolutions but I'm big on promises. So I'm going to look at this as a promise to myself. Less hating and more looking at the good things in my life. Less on the selfish and more on the selfless.
Let's see what happens.
Xx
So this year has started off great and I'm hoping that this isn't going to jinx me. I started a new job which I love, my boy hasn't realised that I'm crazy (let's be honest he probably knows that I'm but loves me anyway) and is still with me and I'm in a happier place.
I learnt a shit load about myself last year, some good things and some not so good things but I think the most important thing I learnt was that I need to be kinder to myself.
That my loves is easier said then done. There are days where I hate what I see in the mirror and I hate my life. Yes hate is a strong word but it's how I see myself. I have come to this thought, if I spend all my time hating myself and who I'm then that's what people will see. This is a habit I want to break and I don't want my future kids to have this passed onto them.
So what am I going to do about it? Well last year my baby sister got me a happiness journal and I'm going to start using that. I want to take photos this year of things that make me happy and I want to be reminded of those things every time shit gets bad. It's not a lot but it's a start.
I have also realised that this year I need to be there for my boy a lot more. Last year he was my rock, he listened to me, he cried with me and he watched me struggle to keep my head above water and never let me go under.
This year I need to be his rock, I need this for us.
I'm not big on resolutions but I'm big on promises. So I'm going to look at this as a promise to myself. Less hating and more looking at the good things in my life. Less on the selfish and more on the selfless.
Let's see what happens.
Xx